These Lyrics and Love

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Verse 1: Helpless emotion Right now blue like the ocean Feel like I'm loosing my grip Bruh I'm fallingI'mhopeless Devil tempting meto take all these drugs I ratherbe burning than falling in love Nothing is changing still goingunnoticed Ihopey'all are hearingme out whenspeaking these lyrics Y'all be piercing my heart if you really don't mean it I mean it I'm fearless Just by touching my skin She got me defeated Tempting to love her But always 2 sided What's new no excitement Can't control it no pilot I always end up facing rejection Guess I just better be quiet So I sit here in silence Waiting for one that is honest Waiting for one that will understand me and can help me with guidance I guess I gotta wait even longer Okay my patience is timed This is really annoying I'm over all this I feel like it will never be fixed Why can't I write like this when I'm happy as shit I told you it's true when I'm feeling depressed I be writing the best (I don't know why I don't know how) All I know is I'll forever be impatient with love Impatient with time Forever holding a grudge to who lie Right to my face or through text Most are just using their fingers Negative energy I will not linger To those who are guilty I'm giving back two middle fingers Why am I dumb Why do I make those decisions I should be better If you are a hater You are not welcome i kick out the rug I hope you understand what I'm saying These lyrics and love Verse 2: I get way too jealous I get way too jealous I think I worry too much I think I get sad too much I need to man up I need to understand who I am Ya I'm still a fan And I'm learning the game Studying lyrics from pac,to shady, and big L to Jay z. what is my purpose.somebody answer my question I do not know what to do Mentally I'm not right A lot of people messed it up Dragged me across the ground But I still got up I'm here to entertain and embrace the hate I might change my appearance My style, my music But never gonna hear me say that I'm loosin The day I say that I'm truly defeated Remember if I wrote it I mean it These Demons they tugging they pulling They tell me I'm ruined They tell me stop rapping but music Is everything I'm trying to shine like these wedding rings Never looking back on to better thangs Go a head and hold the pistol let it let it bang Blowing brain Automatic not the same What's truly my drug? Theses lyrics and love.E